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IMDB rating: 5.10 Plot: Actors led by Alan Ormsby go to graveyard on remote island to act out necromantic ritual. The ritual works, and soon the dead are walking about and chowing down on human flesh. |
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Actors: Ormsby Alan,Gillen Jeff,Cronin Paul,Engleman Roy,Philip Robert,Solomon Bruce,Baird Alecs,Sklarey Seth,Sherman Robert,Bryant Curtis,Smedley William R. ‘Bob’,Comedy,Horror,
People w/ PTSD or who know a lot about it- (recurring)? nightmare, please help!?
OK, I don’t actually have PTSD, but I am severely borderline and have a lot of psychiatric problems. I’ve had extremely violent dreams for years- in just about every dangerous place in the world (Iraq, the Congo, North Korea) and in these creepy alternate realities. I’ve consistently dreamt of being sexually abused, of being raped (though it felt more like oral sex than real rape) or of being chased by rapists, shooting my friends in Nazi death camps to stay alive, being stabbed, watching people’s hands get cut off… But these *weren’t* nightmares. I never felt that feeling of horror, it was sort of detached and every time I wrote them down, it was calm and methodical.
Well now I’ve had a real nightmare. The actual dream shouldn’t seem nearly as terrifying as what I’ve just described, but the feeling of the dream was so horrific; I can’t even tell you how scary it was.
But this is my question. The dream was *so* familiar, scene for scene, and when I woke up I had this dead certainty that I had dreamt it many times before. I had other little fragments that came back to me right after I woke up- things that I had not just dreamt, but that I just knew were other parts of the same dream I had had before. It was like I had just dreamt a tiny fragment of a familiar dream… And most importantly, I was dead certain that I had written it down recently, but somehow I had *completely* forgotten about the dream until last night (which is strange, because I almost never forget dreams, and I certainly wouldn’t have forgotten this one). I was positive I had written it down before, about a month earlier, but there is no trace of the paper. Do you think I somehow disocciated and destroyed or hid the paper? Or is my mind just playing tricks on me? I know it’s possible to have false memories… but this dream had *such* a feel of a recurring nightmare.
You should know that I have disocciated before, it only just started about two months ago and the couple times I remember it has only been a partial disocciation. I did it once right in front of my psychiatrist- he mentioned sexual abuse, and I blanked out for about one minute and couldn’t remember what I had just been talking about. He told me I had disocciated, this is the first time I’ve been consciously aware of doing it. I have no clear memories of having completely disocciated before, but obviously I may have; this is the first major suspicion I’ve had, the first impression of a huge memory gap. I used to sleepwalk as a child and if felt similar, don’t know if that’s relevant…
I’m sorry this is so much info, but I don’t know whether I’m just going crazy… Has anything like this (being certain you did something but having no had recollection of it beforehand) happened to any of you before? Have any of you had recurring nightmares that seem similar?
Please help!!! Thank you
Could it be that you are drawn to watching violent movies, or reading books about women who are raped? That can play
into your dreams too.
Dissociation happens sometimes to everybody. It is people
who have had traumatic experiences that have difficulty with dissociation with any frequency.
To dissociate means to pull apart from – reality & the here and now.
It is a means of self-protection for the mind. It is a dream-like state, or daydreaming.
Trauma is something our brain can try to protect us from,
and dissociation or "forgetting" or hidden memories is how
it does that.
Consider spending time with a Counselor/Therapist who works
with trauma survivors, and is experienced in dissociation.
You will probably find that your therapy moves faster than
with the psychiatrist alone. (Psychiatrists know about these
disorders, but health insurance companies usually will only
pay for their medication expertise)
Hope | Mar 02, 2009